Yes? No? Maybe?

The local symphony is holding auditions for flutists.  I've been toying with the idea of going... after all, the worst they can do is kick me out and tell me I suck (which I seriously doubt any respectful person would do).  But it's been a long time since I really played.  Most of my practicing goes like this:

*Toot toot toot*...
"LB, stop putting your fingers in the printer."
*Toot toot toot toot*...
"JC, really, stop screaming, for the love of God, stop screaming."
*Tooooooot tooooooot toooot*....
"Boys, get out of here and let me PRACTICE!!!"

So the serious playing hasn't happened.  I'm rusty on my scales.  I'm downright abysmal on my arpeggios.  And the level that I attained for my senior recital in college seems completely out of reach.  Bach sonatas are riddled with cuss words and self-deprecating words ("Hey stupid, it says F sharp!").  Berbiguier is punctuated with squeaks and wrong octaves. 

But at the same time, it's just an audition.  If anything, it'll be nice to go in there, by myself (aka, NO KIDS) and see where I'm at.  And maybe there will be other auditions, if I suck at this one.

I want to do it.  I really do.  I just don't know if I can be ready in a month.