Blah. I just wanted to say that. :)
The "out of sight, out of mind" person has been frustrating me to no end. She will send me a stupid facebook photo comment, but won't return my calls or my direct communication. I'm starting to think that it's not worth it, which is too bad, because I didn't think she'd be so difficult to have a friendship with. I'll see what happens on my bday- if it's nothing, then I'm done.
In other news, my Grace Adler has made a gigantic purchase- a house!!! I'm so excited for her!! And, I've seen it online, it's really cute. I'm envisioning their furniture and things in the house. :) Can't wait to see it all done up with their stuff!
LB now has molars. He cut them earlier this month, and that was a terror. I think they still give him a little bit of pain, because he hasn't been sleeping well lately. But he's walking so much, although he still crawls, just because it's faster, haha. I can't wait for Hubby to see him again! I sent him an SD card with pictures and videos, so hopefully he'll get it soon.
I'm planning on getting together next month with some friends from high school that just had babies. We're all going to be in NH at the same time! One of them has a girl, one has a boy, and the pictures of them both are soooo cute! Can't wait to see them in person!
That's all for now. Just living my life one day at a time... get up, feed baby, change baby, play with baby, put baby down for nap, feed baby, play with baby, feed baby dinner, put baby to bed. And repeat. :)
3/25/09
3/8/09
Oh the drama
Whatever had been bugging me is back. Damn. I thought I'd be able to put it behind me, but oh well. I'll just have to keep it in check and make sure it doesn't get any worse.
In other news, I'm finding myself involved in chick drama. I don't really know how that happens. I think it's because I try to be nice to everyone, unless they give me a reason to be a bitch. There's something in particular that is bothering me. It seems like once you have kids, people expect you to do family-oriented things all the time. So not true. I'd love to make plans, get a sitter, and do something sans LB (like the Boyz II Men concert). But it feels like I'm expected to play this role of stay-at-home-mommy, don't-have-any-more-fun person.
I just feel a little dismissed by a particular person. It's a little annoying to see the kid-less ladies doing their thing and knowing that the only reason I'm not invited is because I have kids. Motherhood has definitely changed me- I have a huge responsibility now. But that doesn't change my interests or my personality. Frustrating.
It's also frustrating to be involved with people that are so different. I feel like sometimes I'm caught in the middle and both sides want my opinion, but I'd rather just shut up and not get caught up in the drama. I guess my motto is "can't we all just get along??... unless you're a mega-bitch??" Wish more people lived by that.
In particular, I wish another person lived by that. I know it's really easy to live "out of sight, out of mind", but I'm not like that, and it's a little insulting to be on the receiving end. I know that it's hard to keep up friendships over the miles, but it's not that hard. A call every once in awhile would be nice. And c'mon, facebook is probably the easiest way to keep in touch with people- just a quick comment would suffice. I know I rant about the excess of communication these days, but that makes it all the more baffling why someone isn't able to just say "thinking of you" or something. If we were really close friends like I thought we were, then it wouldn't be this hard.
Ugh. This is why I'm extremely picky about my girl friends. I just don't like the drama. Life's hard enough as it is without adding on cattiness.
In other news, I'm finding myself involved in chick drama. I don't really know how that happens. I think it's because I try to be nice to everyone, unless they give me a reason to be a bitch. There's something in particular that is bothering me. It seems like once you have kids, people expect you to do family-oriented things all the time. So not true. I'd love to make plans, get a sitter, and do something sans LB (like the Boyz II Men concert). But it feels like I'm expected to play this role of stay-at-home-mommy, don't-have-any-more-fun person.
I just feel a little dismissed by a particular person. It's a little annoying to see the kid-less ladies doing their thing and knowing that the only reason I'm not invited is because I have kids. Motherhood has definitely changed me- I have a huge responsibility now. But that doesn't change my interests or my personality. Frustrating.
It's also frustrating to be involved with people that are so different. I feel like sometimes I'm caught in the middle and both sides want my opinion, but I'd rather just shut up and not get caught up in the drama. I guess my motto is "can't we all just get along??... unless you're a mega-bitch??" Wish more people lived by that.
In particular, I wish another person lived by that. I know it's really easy to live "out of sight, out of mind", but I'm not like that, and it's a little insulting to be on the receiving end. I know that it's hard to keep up friendships over the miles, but it's not that hard. A call every once in awhile would be nice. And c'mon, facebook is probably the easiest way to keep in touch with people- just a quick comment would suffice. I know I rant about the excess of communication these days, but that makes it all the more baffling why someone isn't able to just say "thinking of you" or something. If we were really close friends like I thought we were, then it wouldn't be this hard.
Ugh. This is why I'm extremely picky about my girl friends. I just don't like the drama. Life's hard enough as it is without adding on cattiness.
3/3/09
Feeling better
The things that have been bothering me lately have passed, thank god. It still sucks to not be able to talk to Hubby about any of this, but at least it's resolved. And now I can put this past week and half behind me.
LB has been so great. He's such an easy-going kid (he has his moments, but most of the time he's wonderful). He's walking much more now- he'll even walk to a toy, pick it up (without falling over), then walk with it! I feel so proud. :) It's funny to see him learn things, like when he studies my mouth as I talk. So cute. I feel really lucky to have a kid that seems to love to learn.
Overall, this deployment has been okay. Unfortunately, we haven't been able to communicate as much as I'd like, but I like to think about what Hubby does on a day-to-day basis and what he does on his down time. And when I really miss him, I check out real estate in NH, imagining what it will be like when we actually start house hunting and settling down.
LB has been so great. He's such an easy-going kid (he has his moments, but most of the time he's wonderful). He's walking much more now- he'll even walk to a toy, pick it up (without falling over), then walk with it! I feel so proud. :) It's funny to see him learn things, like when he studies my mouth as I talk. So cute. I feel really lucky to have a kid that seems to love to learn.
Overall, this deployment has been okay. Unfortunately, we haven't been able to communicate as much as I'd like, but I like to think about what Hubby does on a day-to-day basis and what he does on his down time. And when I really miss him, I check out real estate in NH, imagining what it will be like when we actually start house hunting and settling down.
2/27/09
Hate the neighbors
I f-ing hate my neighbors. They're loud, their kids are loud until 11pm, and my kid can't sleep. This is the 4th night in a row that LB has woken up because of them.
It's really only two neighbors- the ones across the sidewalk from us, and the ones catty-corner in the alley from us. And, of course, those two redneck women are friends and pass thru my yard, talking and gabbing and smoking, and all that noise and smoke comes into my house. Not to mention their f-ing rugrat kids and delinquent teenage boys, who are constantly in the park across the street from my house, screaming and yelling. Which is okay during the day. I totally expect kids to be kids. But I also expect them to leave me the he!! alone, not sit on my stoop right outside LB's room and talk loudly, not throw things at my dog's face, and not get me up at 11pm so they can call the cops because their parents are beating them.
Then there is another neighbor. It's not the people, it's their bird. They let it outside, but it sounds just like a high pitched, screaming little girl, and sometimes sounds like a child being beaten. The first several times I heard it, I thought it was just the neighborhood kids screaming, but then I saw the bird and realized that it was imitating them. And last night, they left it out there until 11:30pm (seriously, I was already in bed), letting it squawk and scream.
I am just so sick of this neighborhood. I understand the military has to maximize their land use by building houses close together, but this is ridiculous. I don't understand how these people can have such little respect for people that live thisclose to them.
I've decided that Hubby and I can't buy a house within a stone's throw of our neighbors. I just need the quiet and the space and the respect. I'm trying to stay calm and not worry about this, but I can't help it when they wake up my sleeping child, who took a half hour to get to bed!!!! F*** you, white trash, redneck neighbors!!!!
It's really only two neighbors- the ones across the sidewalk from us, and the ones catty-corner in the alley from us. And, of course, those two redneck women are friends and pass thru my yard, talking and gabbing and smoking, and all that noise and smoke comes into my house. Not to mention their f-ing rugrat kids and delinquent teenage boys, who are constantly in the park across the street from my house, screaming and yelling. Which is okay during the day. I totally expect kids to be kids. But I also expect them to leave me the he!! alone, not sit on my stoop right outside LB's room and talk loudly, not throw things at my dog's face, and not get me up at 11pm so they can call the cops because their parents are beating them.
Then there is another neighbor. It's not the people, it's their bird. They let it outside, but it sounds just like a high pitched, screaming little girl, and sometimes sounds like a child being beaten. The first several times I heard it, I thought it was just the neighborhood kids screaming, but then I saw the bird and realized that it was imitating them. And last night, they left it out there until 11:30pm (seriously, I was already in bed), letting it squawk and scream.
I am just so sick of this neighborhood. I understand the military has to maximize their land use by building houses close together, but this is ridiculous. I don't understand how these people can have such little respect for people that live thisclose to them.
I've decided that Hubby and I can't buy a house within a stone's throw of our neighbors. I just need the quiet and the space and the respect. I'm trying to stay calm and not worry about this, but I can't help it when they wake up my sleeping child, who took a half hour to get to bed!!!! F*** you, white trash, redneck neighbors!!!!
2/24/09
Where's my husband?....
A few personal things have happened since the deployment. One on its own would be fine, but they just keep building. Deployments are never easy, but it's times like these when I just wish Hubby was here.
I like to keep some issues to myself, or at the most share them with immediate family and my Grace Adler. So I won't go into it. But it makes me realize how lonely and how truly on-my-own I feel.
I've been pretty lucky to have the friends I have here on the island. My neighbor has been a huge help. And the CO's wife has been the most caring person, genuinely concerned about how things are going. So it's nice to know that if I ever need it, there are people here I can rely on.
But this situation typically relies on the husband. It's kind of part of his husbandly duties. I know it would kill him to find out what's going on and not be able to do anything about it, and it's killing me not being able to tell him and knowing that he'd want to know. I'm actually really glad we won't be speaking on the phone, since I can easily edit emails and strip all the emotions and innuendos regarding these things.
But it's still hard to need someone and know that even though they would, they can't be here.
I like to keep some issues to myself, or at the most share them with immediate family and my Grace Adler. So I won't go into it. But it makes me realize how lonely and how truly on-my-own I feel.
I've been pretty lucky to have the friends I have here on the island. My neighbor has been a huge help. And the CO's wife has been the most caring person, genuinely concerned about how things are going. So it's nice to know that if I ever need it, there are people here I can rely on.
But this situation typically relies on the husband. It's kind of part of his husbandly duties. I know it would kill him to find out what's going on and not be able to do anything about it, and it's killing me not being able to tell him and knowing that he'd want to know. I'm actually really glad we won't be speaking on the phone, since I can easily edit emails and strip all the emotions and innuendos regarding these things.
But it's still hard to need someone and know that even though they would, they can't be here.
2/22/09
Dammit, Nicole Richie, you're stealing my thunder.
Last year, Nicole Richie had her baby 4 days before I had LB (although mine was late and hers was early). Now, I hear she's preggo for a second time, and celebrities don't usually announce that kind of stuff until they're into their second trimester. I am only 2 weeks away from mine, so that means (yet again) Nicole Richie and I will be having similarly timed pregnancies.
Yippy skippy.
I'm not a big fan of Ms. Richie. I watched a few episodes of The Simple Life, and I actually thought Paris was a kinder person. I know, whaaaaat?? So I was pretty shocked that she had one baby, and now I'm even more shocked that she's having another, and I can't believe our kids will be due around the same time again. She's just not the person I thought I'd have anything in common with!
Yippy skippy.
I'm not a big fan of Ms. Richie. I watched a few episodes of The Simple Life, and I actually thought Paris was a kinder person. I know, whaaaaat?? So I was pretty shocked that she had one baby, and now I'm even more shocked that she's having another, and I can't believe our kids will be due around the same time again. She's just not the person I thought I'd have anything in common with!
14 hours?
Last night, LB was fussy and rubbing his eyes around 5:00pm. I knew it was going to be an early night for him. The previous night, we had stayed up until 9:30pm (he usually goes to bed at 7), so it's no surprise that he was tired. I put him down at 6:30 and didn't hear a peep from him. Now, it's 8:30am the next morning, and he's still sleeping! Either that, or he's quietly awake and just playing around in his crib.
I'm glad at least one of us is getting a good night's sleep. Usually when Hubby is deployed, I have the whole bed to myself (naturally) and can spread out and take up all the room. And I'll sleep like... well, like LB! But I can't seem to stop waking up at around 4:30am- then I'm wide awake for an hour or two, then eventually fall back asleep. You'd think it was my body telling me I've had enough sleep, but I can't seem to get out of bed at 7:30am, and all day I feel like taking a nap. I don't, because I want to sleep at night, not during the day.
It's bizarre. I have a theory that I'm still on eastern standard time, which is why I keep waking up when it's night here and morning there. Maybe this won't resolve until we move back east. :) It's a dumb theory, but I did after all spend the first 27 years of my life in the same time zone!
Whatever the cause, I wish it would go away because I hate waking up in the middle of the night for no reason. I love my sleep!
I'm glad at least one of us is getting a good night's sleep. Usually when Hubby is deployed, I have the whole bed to myself (naturally) and can spread out and take up all the room. And I'll sleep like... well, like LB! But I can't seem to stop waking up at around 4:30am- then I'm wide awake for an hour or two, then eventually fall back asleep. You'd think it was my body telling me I've had enough sleep, but I can't seem to get out of bed at 7:30am, and all day I feel like taking a nap. I don't, because I want to sleep at night, not during the day.
It's bizarre. I have a theory that I'm still on eastern standard time, which is why I keep waking up when it's night here and morning there. Maybe this won't resolve until we move back east. :) It's a dumb theory, but I did after all spend the first 27 years of my life in the same time zone!
Whatever the cause, I wish it would go away because I hate waking up in the middle of the night for no reason. I love my sleep!
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