I fell off the bandwagon BIG TIME this past month. I don't know what happened- maybe it was all the running around that we do every weekend and all the stress that comes with that. This past weekend, I felt so much more relaxed and motivated, staying in CT. I worked out a few times and decided to weigh myself at the gym on Sunday.
I weighed 161 lbs. OUCH.
I went for a run on Monday. I'm pretty sure that two people laughed at me as I ran by. It was pretty humiliating, but it definitely renewed my desire to trim down. (And my desire to take up karate again, so I can kick those jackass' butts.)
I feel like I'm completely lost in this body. I was skinny in high school, and even though I put on a few pounds in college, I was still really thin. I never had a weight problem (even though I thought I did), until I had kids. Now, I don't recognize this body. I don't know how to dress it, how to flatter it, how to hide it.
I've decided that I don't particularly care for this new physique. I don't want to relearn how to dress myself. So I'm back to my weigh loss quest. I probably need to lose twenty pounds- 140 is a decent weight for someone who's 5'8".
On a related note, I discovered a playground close to preschool that had a gravel running track circling around it. I'm thinking about dropping LB off at his preschool, then taking JC to the playground while I literally run circles around him.
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Oh, ho! I hear you! I have always been skinny - too skinny, as a matter of fact...I don't know how many times I have had to tell people "No, I do not have an eating disorder! I'm just thin!!" I couldn't tell you how many people say "Oh, you're soooo skinny." I mean, you wouldn't say to someone "You are sooo fat," would you?
Anyway, now that I've let off some steam...I have gained about 20 pounds since child number four - although I've had to abandon my old wardrobe, I don't feel too bad about it, because I have curves for the first time in my life!! However, I don't want to gain too much more...
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